Feelings of Betrayal

Where do broken hearts go ?

When they don't have a song to sing or have a prayer.

When your heart is bare.

Where do broken hearts go ?

When your heart has been ripped out of your chest and stomped on.

When your body goes numb and you can no longer care.

Where do broken hearts go ?

To shun themselves away from the rest of the world.

When they're all alone and can't stand to go on.

To be at one with themselves.

And think....think....think....think. Thinking why ?

Why would this person want to deliberately hurt me ?

Was it something I did ? Something I said ?

How could they do this to me ?

Then the depression turn to RAGE.

You feel betrayed.

Since your heart just went up in flames, you want revenge.

Suddenly it turns into this Bride of Chucky moment,

Where all you can think about is kill, kill kill.

Visualizing their blood being splattered painting itself on the walls.

You get up take a deep breathe and inhale the fumes of the dead corpse.

Feeling relieved you leave the scene.

Leaving them like you felt COLD.

Colder than dry ice.

So answer this WHERE DO BROKEN HEARTS GO ?

I'm Not ALONE

Happy Birthday to ME ! I am grateful I have Bib & Beth with me today. Although only 3 of us, but I have a great Birthday. Thank you all of you guys for the lovely wishes.......

I wish the moment I step into 28 years old, everything will be FINE. How many years to go ??? No one can tell. So it's better live like you are dying with no regret in life.

My 3 Months ....

In my life, I haven't been feeling so down, tired of life, frustrated, lost and hating myself before. But in these 3 months it just like the rainbow. Too much of ups and downs. Luckily I didn't give up. Or I won't be here typing now.

Life is really tough to go through. Sometimes you just feel like giving up. I hate to be compared with someone lifes. By looking at people out there having a good lifes, that's sucks !!!

Teddy Bear, you are the one who always help me and you are the one who understand me the most. Of course my lovely sisters does too. Without you guys I would have already give up in my life. Thank you all.

Now .......

I learned how to be strong.
I learned how to live without you.
I learned how to enjoy life.
I learned how to see the world.
I learned how to love myself more.

And That's LIFE...........

I did it Again ...

I am not weak, although I cried out loud like there's no tomorrow.
I am happy I finally make up my mind. I realize that's not so bad.
I wish I know what do you have in your mind. But that's too late .......

How long will this last ? let's see and let's the time tell us .....

Why Am I so SAD ??

Feeling so down, when someone you really trust they let you down. Someone that you always thought of when you do something and they are always on your mind. But too bad they let you down ...........

That feeling is really sucks, hurts and it can make you speechless. Thousand of "WHY" on your mind !
Sometimes you just can't help it.

Tomorrow will be a better day .... yeah it will be !!

Sisters

3 May'09 - A great day be with my sisters, nephew & niece. Meet my high school teacher Sir Zamri. OMG .... he is getting old with his white hair all over. I was wondering what's in his mind seeing us having our own life now ? He taught us being a good person when we was young and seeing us sucess in life. He told us he is proud seeing us around :) I guess thats the best compliments isn't it ? I wish I am still 16 years old .... without any stress ! *ughhhh.....

I've been busy with work and missed a lot of fun time with family ! I missed the day when we were young, running around, laughed, cried ...... I love ya sisters !

Amei's Concert

20 Mac'09 - I have been dreaming going to Amei's Concert for ages. Finally my dream came true ! Yay ~ I'm so so so excited. Bought a most expensive ticket. Taking a plane from KK to KL just to watch this concert ! Am I insane ? No I am not hahahaha..... Dont even know how to get into the venue. Luckily I am smart enough ! Although taking a wrong train to different station, but it doesnt stop me. I keep asking strangers how to take a train to Bukit Jalil outdoor stadium and finally I get there after 2 hours journey. Gosh .... it's raining like *&^%$#$%^&*

Before the concert start the rain stopped. Thank god ! I am sure everybody are so excited including ME. There are nearly 20k people here just to watch this concert. Can you believe ?

I can't describe how's my emotion is when Amei came out to the stage. Her voice are superb !!! The first person I thought of is My mum. "Mummy, I finally see her infront of me. Can you see her ?" My mum likes her song call "sisters" and she sang that song too. How I wish I can have someone watching the concert with. Too bad just me alone .......

Overall feel, this concert is AWESOME with no regret ! Amei is a outstanding singer ever !!! Love it :)

The concert ended at 12am, to catch the last train I had to walk all the way from the stadium to the train station under the rain. God .... can you imagine how many people is waiting for the train ? I was like a sandwich inside the train. The most unlucky moment is that ..... The other connecting train station whereby to get to my hotel is closed. So I walked all the way from the station to the hotel. Guess what ? I walked for 1 hour under the rain. Holly S**t !!! Well this is my sweet experienced!!