Sleepless Night

From a nightmare to a sleepless night, I thought I have got used to it. Lately having a weird nightmare making me wonder what’s happening to me. From an unknown man chasing me and trying to kill me, cockroaches all around my body, centipedes all around my bed and seeing full of death bodies. Is this normal ? Oh Mei … What’s happening ?

This is really torturing me. Having a bad health is not my fault. I’ve been trying my best to live and care as much as I can. I’ve never wanted people think that I am different from the rest. I play, I run, I jump, I dance, I swim, I smile and I even hide my pain and sadness just wanted people think that I’m happy. Is this wrong ? To me, seeing them happy that’s my happiness. Mum, I heard you……

One week with only less than 7 hours sleep, I wonder how I handled it though. Zane always said “ Mei, you won’t be 28 forever. You will get old, winkles everywhere, ugly and die one day.” Hah…. Who doesn’t know the fact of life ? The thing is that, I might not be able to wait till I get old and ugly then die. Even so, I will be very grateful if I have that moment. I swear I will be very happy to see that !

Someone asked me, “Do you listen to yourself or do you often ask yourself what you want in life ?”

Me: Yes, I do. How about you ?
Him: Me too. But I can’t get what I really want, even I’ve tried my best. I don’t think I will ever get what I want.
Me: Sometimes you do not need to own them. You know you’ve own the best memories that the rest of the people will never get. Isn’t that enough ? Doesn’t mean you have it, things will go well. Right ?

Him: I wish I can go back......

This is what I call "appreciate" what you've got before you lose it. Shall we ?

I own the memories !!!